Rapper Jay-Z is finally opening up about the shooting of his brother when he was 12.

Popeater reports that Jay, whose birth name is Shawn Carter, admitted to opening fire on his brother Eric as he watched him desperately feed his crack addiction.

“I thought I’d go to jail forever,” Jay admits to the Guardian. “I was a boy, a child. I was terrified.”

Jay was never charged for the shooting as his brother never pressed for legal action. The brothers made amends when Jay visited him in the hospital and Eric apologized for his crippling addiction.

Jay raps about the event on his second album on a track called “You Must Love Me.” Jay raps “Saw the devil in your eyes, high off more than weed, confused, I just closed my young eyes and squeezed.”

…and now Jay-z is worth about a quadrillion million dollars. I guess things worked out in the end after all!